When I first found out I was pregnant, I was devastated.
I couldn’t believe this was really happening. I was scared of what people were going to say, that they would judge me. The baby’s father kept telling me to get an abortion, but I was scared. I didn’t know what to do.
Growing up in the church, abortion was never an option. But when I was the one facing the decision, everything changed. For weeks, I struggled with what to do. When I thought about abortion, I couldn’t imagine living with the “what ifs” of having chosen to not have the baby. But when I thought about becoming a mom, I saw all of my dreams and goals disappear. I had never been so depressed.
I knew that Caris’ services were free so it was the first place I turned to for help.
After a couple of counseling sessions, I decided to parent. It felt like a huge weight had been removed. There was no turning back and it ended up being the best decision I ever made!
After I had my son, Jordan, I began attending a Caris Connection Group and eventually graduated to Connection NEXT. I had deep conversations about real life issues with other women and realized that they were going through the same struggles I was. I could finally express myself without feeling judged and for the first time, realized I wasn’t alone.
With this kind of support and encouragement, Caris helped me move forward.
I have grown so much as a person over the last two years. I starting going to church again. At first, it felt like a task but the more I listened to the message, the more connected I felt. When the church invited people to be baptized, I knew that God was speaking to me. Walking up to that stage and getting blessed in the water was the best moment of surrender. I was so happy that I cried afterwards, knowing that I was fully devoting my life to the Lord and it was in his hands. God has put these life experiences and these people in my path for a reason. I am excited to continue my journey with God and cannot wait to see what He has in store for me.